14 Mar Wanderlove
This trip to Wanderlust I had been looking forward to for the longest time. 4 days filled with yoga, meditation, beautiful humans, talks and great music.
Absolute heaven. So many amazing experiences to be had! We were getting excited and for me I was almost as excited by the trip down in the car. I love travelling by any means and good road trips mean tunes, highways and open skies.
Wanderlust has a magical feel to it, held in the beautiful and majestic mountains we felt on top of the world. All of our classes were just pure yogic perfection and over the course of the time there, my friendship deepened and deepened with my gorgeous yoga buddy.
The thing for me about yoga is when you give yourself over completely to the process, so much “stuff” comes up like facing your fears, seeing relationships with fresh eyes or even shifting perception of thoughts that you had swirling through your mind.
Lots of tears, smiles of joy and awakenings happened for me at Wanderlust. I had completely let go and my heart was the most open I feel it’s ever been. I realized that the love I had been searching and looking for, desperate to find and hold onto, thinking it would always be unattainable or out of reach was right here in front of me the whole time.
At Wanderlust I fell in love.
I fell in love with me.
I experienced the most wondrous breakthroughs and seeing for the first time with a clear and calm mind, that I was what I was looking for. I needed to search no more. I think when we are younger we are taught that loving yourself was a bad thing, and that self-depreciation and mental self-harm was the norm. Now I am confident in myself and know exactly what I love and what I am working on within myself.
This has brought a peace into my world that I don’t think I have ever had before. I feel buoyed by self-love and am so grateful for all of the love, support and guidance those soul sisters and brothers have shared on this path with me. I do feel this shining out and I know that it is not comfortable for some to see this light. I am seeing these people in my life with a full heart and am hoping that they find their true north in their lives also.
For me this is the right thing and I love all of the processes I am going through. I don’t always get it right, and the feedback from my girls has been interesting and insightful, though I know everything is constantly changing, so for them consistency with this new process is key right now.
For me now to have my heart completely held in another’s hands, I know that it must be the right thing and also the right time and how I will know this is only by pure gut instinct.
For me though, I am and will always be enough.